5 Days and losing hair but gaining acne

I made it five days without blogging…mostly because my arm has been killing me, stupid motorcycle riding and tennis elbow.  I checked the scale this morning, and am proud to say that I am maintaining my weight loss at 161.6, still .6 pounds lighter than coming back from Sturgis.

On the downside, the hairloss started last week, or the week before.  I forget which, but life  seemed to get a little suckery right when I left the diet.  Also, three days ago my face started breaking out hardcore.  So at this point I feel like an old lady with hair falling out mixed with a 15 year old boy breaking out in pimples with greasy hair.

Knowing the downside of coming off the diet, I’m now going to be more prepared when I go back on to lose the rest of my weight.  The bright side of this is that I am now being compulsive about washing my face, almost fanatical in my cleaning.  Also, I’m washing my hair daily, much to the dismay over my well-paid hair stylist.

Right now, I feel good, that I’m seeing my weight loss on a daily basis more now than ever, not in that “i’m thinner today than yesterday”, but rather in “I really dont’ look like a heifer anymore” and every day I am closer to believing it.

Why is re-starting a diet so damn hard???

Excuses

I promise I try to be good, every single day, but it feels like I’m a smoker who’s going to quit, and I quit every day, only to light back up after breakfast the next morning.

I say “I’m back on my diet” as I reach for a soft shell taco at a local restaurant.  “I know what I’m doing” as I reheat my leftover Chinese food for dinner.  “It’s ok,” I say, “It has chicken and a lot of veggies in it, and I’m not eating all the Spicy Brown Sauce.”

Even to my own ears the excuses seem to fall flat, obvious in their attempt at justification.

“I’ll restock on healthy food when I get paid, my shelves are bare from me being gone for a week.” seems to be translating into “I’ll start tomorrow.” and I have to wonder, how many “tomorrow’s” will there be before the scale starts to go up again?

I fought tooth and nail to get down to 162, and although as of yesterday I was below that, I didn’t weigh myself this morning, and deep down I think I know why:

My head is firmly buried in the sand

Have you ever known you were gaining weight, or cheating on a diet, so you avoid the scale?  It’s like keeping your eyes closed at a scary movie.  Everything is happening anyway, but you don’t want to see it.

Today I will try again, and yes, I am out of my GNC shakes, and my Wonderslim is depressingly low, but that is no excuse not to TRY.

PS, my 110 lb dog, Dante, says hello, and…

He is such a sweetheart that one.  And yes, he is a Husky mix, here he is:

Yes really, that’s him…kind of funny that I’m pretty sure he doesn’t think he is fat, either, and it makes total sense his head is buried in the snow…

Today I will bring my cinnamon vanilla cereal to work and snack on it if I get hungry.  It has 15g of protein and only 4g carbs in a baggie.  I will also eat my soup that is at work, another 15g protein and about 6g of net carbs.  Finally, I will drink my 80 ounces of water today, I swear, I will…try.

With that being said, I’ve held myself accountable to the world, and left it all out there, so to speak, and now I go to start my day anew.

Not so Ideal…

So I’m back from my trip (see previous post) and I’ll admit, I was kind of bad…not like “Burn in Hell!” bad, just “kind of” in trouble bad.  I had toast two mornings towards the end and had a full fledged normal meal one night, including mashed potatoes, gravy and a dinner roll.  It was sublime.

I’m back home now, and trying to remember to get back into the swing of things, but have one downside…I’m completely out of my supplies!  I’m trying to be a frugal person for the next month, as our cruise is exactly one month away from today! Woohoo! Well, we leave a month from today, the cruise isn’t until the 16th of September, but still, I’ll be out of South Dakota and off my diet for 11 full days, omg that sounds insane!

Yes, really, I just “OMG”‘d about being off the diet for a while.

Let’s see, I weighed in yesterday at 162.2 ( +0.2 lbs from when we left for Sturgis) and this morning was back down to 161.4 , which yes, is less than when I left, hooray!  I had chinese food on Sunday night when I got home, so there could have been some water retention there, last night I made grilled cheese sandwiches with tomato and then had some tomato soup as well, and I still lost? OK, I’ll take it!  I’d love to drop a few more pounds before the cruise, but really don’t want to “shock” my body when it’s time to binge at the buffet, so to speak.  So here I sit, lounging in my jammies at 7:30 in the morning.  Debating whether I dig through my cupboard for my healthy food, or just grab the Cinnamon Toast Crunch, in all its glory, and chow down.

For today at least, it seems my willpower is firmly in place, and I’ll be grabbing my weird cinnamon vanilla cereal instead of my Cinnamon Toast Crunch bliss.  On the bright side, I did get more of my Sugar Free Caramel Mocchiato creamer

Image Well, I guess it’s time for me to get ready for work, and all that jazz, here’s to staying as close to “good” as I could, and finding my way back through the wilderness to “epic” by the end of the week!

Bariwise Wild Berry Protein

Alright, time for another first…the Wild Berry flavored drink…my initial impression is kind of fear…it’s pink…like the strawberry kiwi was…oh well, here we go!

Oh it’s good!  And it’s sweet!  This totally could taste like an alcoholic drink, margarita or sangria somethin if made just right.  So glad that only one of the four flavors has been bad so far.  Chalk up another one for Bariwise!

Bariwise Peach Mango “Protein” drink

OK…the moment of truth…the first drink…not bad!  It kind of tastes like those little peachie-oh’s you can buy in the gas station.  You know the ones right? They’re gummy little rings coated in sugar, and you stick your tongue through the middle to see if you can rip them with the shear power of tongue?  No?  Well, maybe my childhood was different than some others.

All I know is, today’s lunch is not going to suck, so I’m happy!  Monday  night I tried the Strawberry Kiwi, and it was aweful, like, peptobismal aweful…so this is a pleasant change of pace.  For a snack I have Wild Berry to try later this afternoon…here’s hoping the trend of good continues!